Sometimes, when life is difficult and you don’t feel like you can do “all the things,” you have to let something go. We have had so much on our plate lately that I really thought the garden would suffer, but I’ve managed to keep it alive and thriving and even weeded! I chose to let the website and social media go to keep the ultimate dream alive.

In this day and age, you feel so much pressure to have a virtual presence that it can make the goal overwhelming. The goal was never to have a million followers, it was to share the journey, but if it makes the journey more daunting, why do it? So I’ll post as able and start a social media presence when appropriate, but just not yet.

The important thing is to continue working toward the goal. For me, it is to have a successful vegetable and flower farm. For you, it could be to lose 20 pounds. Just because my journey to reaching a goal doesn’t look like someone else’s doesn’t mean I’m taking the wrong path. I’m just taking the one that best fits my life. I hope you are doing the same.

Remember, you aren’t them. You don’t know all of their circumstances, and they don’t know yours, so make your path your own! Don’t judge yourself because you can’t make room for “all the things.”

I encourage you to stay focused on the ultimate goal or the mini goal, whichever is less overwhelming and more realistic for you. Lately, my goal is just to keep it alive… It’s not dead yet!

Every time the husband gets on the tractor, it seems like the garden gets bigger and bigger. Our little guy helped till it one last time before we planted the first seeds of the season. A border on one side of cut flowers to help deter the deer from getting the things they like most in the center.

While we have been quiet, we have been diligently working at the farm. Cleaning and expanding the garden, registering the business, and learning about everything we need to do to be in compliance with the State. One of those items was needing to register a Farmer’s Market! For some reason this idea greatly excited me as it could grow into so many possibilities including the potential for a larger market down the road for my community and add a venue for other small businesses like ours. Exciting, potentially much bigger stuff is happening indeed!

Literally and figuratively. We have gotten our seeds planted for the items we wanted to get an early start on, as well as offer for sale as plants. We have also taken the steps to apply as an actual business with the State, so if things go well we will be able to grow our opportunities to sell plants, produce, and bouquets both locally and online. It’s an exciting, anxiety laden time. Watching and waiting with bated breath for the seeds to sprout. Finally, today, the first one appeared.

We went out foraging for supplies to start producing examples of the possibilities.

We broke ground on our new garden this week. Tonight I had some “help” clearing out rocks, grass clumps, and roots.

Welcome to Cedar Brook Farm! It’s a rainy Sunday here and no one wanted to go out in the gloomy weather, but since I had to come out here to feed you, you have to come out to eat. Funny thing is, I’d feed them in the barn, but they can’t figure out how to eat in there. They are conditioned to hear the chain rattle when we open the gate, come out of the barn or wherever they may be grazing in a field, and go stand at their spot on the fence and wait for their food. Even in the worst weather conditions, even when alternative accommodations are offered, they go to their spot and wait to eat. Sometimes humans are just as set in our ways, even when it is to our own detriment. Breaking the cycle of a behavior can be hard, but it can also be necessary to obtain our goals and better our lives.

Since my last post, our lives have changed immeasurably. We inherited the family farm and the care of my late mother-in-law’s horses. We’ve been fixing up the farm property and envisioning what it could be in the future, and, of course, we’ve been adjusting to life with an extremely active little boy. So while this page started as a leaping point for my writing and life coaching, it is morphing into where we currently are in our lives to fit my needs and those of my family. I hope you’ll join us for this new journey that will more than likely still include a little of the old.

Soooo, yep, I totally ghosted on you guys.  I was posting at least once a month and then bam!  nothing.  See this funny thing happened in January… Here I was minding my own business and I started feeling bad at the end of December.  Not horrible, just blah and not myself.  Early in January I went to Urgent Care and walked out with a sever sinus infection diagnosis and was informed that I had entered menopause.  Ok.  I was 40 at the time so I thought it was a little young, but not out of the realm.  Fast forward to mid January.  I still feel like crap and I started getting sick every morning, so I peed on one of those magical little stick tests, and yep, pregnant.  Holy Crap…I’m 40!  I may have shared with you guys that I struggled with infertility and had experienced two miscarriages, so while excited for another shot at expanding our family, I was also scared of what might happen, so I went radio silent on my life with everyone.  With my advanced maternal age, came a litany of extra tests and extra doctor’s appointment.  I was also just always tired and was barely doing enough to keep the day to day life going much less anything extra.  We were 20 weeks in before we officially announced the news to the world and I am happy to report that a very healthy little boy joined our family earlier this month.  I’m still tired because…well…newborn, but I’m back.  Hoping to be a lot more active while on maternity leave and perhaps even get to work on my side projects a little more.  So that is what has been going on with me.  Anything new and exciting in your world?